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While I’ve been busying myself with all things worldly and insignificant, a dear friend went through the hardest thing a person could ever go through.

She lost her dad to the C word.

I was taken aback when I first received her text. Uncle was supposed to be fine albeit already having some complications of the disease and I was all geared up to visit him next week. God clearly had better plans when He decided  to pull the plug much earlier than his doctors had predicted.

I can’t even begin to imagine what my dear friend is going through during this hard, difficult time. Being the master weeper that I am, I had tears trickling down when I broke the news to our mutual comrades. Tears are even swelling up as I write this, but I know it can never compare to the heartache that she must be experiencing right now.

Uncle as I remember was an overall nice guy. A competent professional with a towering personality and I dare say, the most humble, down-to-earth person I’ve ever met in my life. He led a simple life, always putting others first before his own needs, be it his family or his patients. I’ve heard stories after stories on how he struggled during his earlier years of conversion to Islam, of how he excelled through medical school with very limited funds and ultimately his journey to become the high-flying, great person that he was throughout his lifetime.

Probably my most favourite story of him was of a certain “Buku 555”. During his times of financial hardship years back, he took the effort to write down the names of everyone he ever borrowed money from as well as the amount of debt in that little book. He was determined to pay everyone back once he started earning his own salary. And true to his words, he paid in full to each and everyone that he was indebted to, even if it was just a few Ringgit. Him and his saintly ways are living proof that good, kind Samaritans still exist in this cold hard World.

It was a known fact among our colleagues that my dear friend had always talked  so fondly of her Papa. Papa this, Papa that. Yes, I think most of us might have envied her at some point for having such a wonderful person around as a dad. He was truly an inspiration, and he will be dearly missed by all of us. As for me, I will always have that image of him giving her (rather heavy) baby brother a piggyback ride up the stairs during our stay at her place 2 years ago. Good times, those were.

So my dear friend, grief all you want and come back stronger than ever. The upcoming few months will be tough, and not having Papa around will make things a notch harder than it already is.

But we are here for you.

I am here for you.

I will do whatever it takes to make sure we win this rat race together, and you shall make Papa proud of the woman that you are and you will be. Allah works in mysterious ways, so let us all pray that there will be a silver lining to this big dark cloud.

I love you.

Tribute for Allahyarham Dr. Mohd Arif Kor Abdullah. 1961 -2009.


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Saturdays will no longer be the same now that Akademi Fantasia Season 7 has started.

AF = Mama hogging the remote, with the TV stuck on 104 for 2 hours = No saturday night football.

But thank God for online TV! Setanta rocks.

P/S : What a night. United may have lost badly (YNWA wtf. Thank you Kop!), but EMPAT KOSONG to The Arsenal is what matters the most. 🙂

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The C Word.

3 years ago, I watched my mom’s youngest brother battle lung cancer.

He was in his early 40s and by the time of diagnosis, the cancer had already metastasized to his spine and liver.

He didn’t make it.

Just today, another aunt (my dad’s sister) was told that she has cancer. This time it’s breast cancer, which has also metastasized to her spine and liver.


This is a crushing blow to the family unit.

The C word, all over again.

I am devastated.

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Bored Sick of Studying.

  1. I have a MAJOR exam in 4 days, and all I want to do right now is go out and buy lingerie. Lots and lots of em. Don’t ask me why.
  2. Yesterday I discovered that 2 of my guy best friends (Yes F, I’m acknowledging you as a guy now) have been silent readers of le blog. Why you guys never comment one?
  3. I hate it that people are calling Pavilion (the shopping complex)by the name of Pavy. WTF PAVY SO TAK CLASSY OK. Altogether now, p-vlyn!
  4. I think those 4 Perak assemblymen (more like greedy frogs in pursuit of power) are about as disgusting as politicians can get. The whole situation is an absolute treachery to the people of Perak. I don’t favour a snap election though, as it would be a waste of time and resources. Hmmph.
  5. Kuala Kangsar

  6. Speaking of Perak, I have very fond memories of the state. Spent 5 wonderful years growing up in Ipoh, and another few years of visiting my sister in SEMESTI Teluk Intan. Gosh how I miss Rendang Tok!
  7. The girls who keep my sanity intact* are in Bagan Lalang for a picnic right this second. And they’re playing KITES! And I’m stuck here in Kampung Baru burying myself in books. 😦 One of the many sacrifices, eh? You girls better take kickass pics with your DSLRs and I shall hog them with comments on Facebook!

  8. The official line-up for Sunburst’09 sucks! I’m not spending my hard-earned (LOL) RM200 allowance just to see some local acts performing like it’s Rock The World! Last year’s line-up was wayyyy better (a sweaty John Legend and a topless Brandon Boyd tee hee. And Najwa too!). I’m keeping my fingers crossed for Coldplay. “My heart is yours. It’s you that I hold on to. That’s what I’ll do.” Sigh.
  9. 101_1503

  10. I’m now at my fattest due to 10 weeks of continuous belajar-makan-tidur cycle. Sumpah tak fit langsung. Will resume workout after the exams, I promise.
  11. I miss the parentals. And the sister.
  12. Ok sekian. Mari belajar.

*Shisha buddies, brunchmates, and weekend gossipmates. You know who you are. 🙂

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This is me, de-stressing.

Was tagged by NK some few entries ago, and it so happens that I’m in the mood for the tagging business.

First tag.

1) Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right NOW!. 2) DON’T change your clothes, DON’T fix your hair…just take a picture. 3) Post that picture with NO editing. 4) Post these instruction with your picture. 5) Tag 10 people to do this.

My phone doesn’t have a camera (It’s a 4 year-old Nokia 6610 which still functions VERY WELL despite multiple falls and toilet misfortunes HAHA. And I intend to keep this baby of mine until I earn enough moolah to buy myself a Blackberry. Which will be lagi 2 years kot?) and my digital camera apparently eats alkaline battery for breakfast, hence the pictureless post.

Next tag.

A wedding tag. 🙂 A few of my girlfriends are getting engaged/married very soon, so I’ve been indulging in their wedding fantasies a bit too much that I just have to come up with my own set of answers! Mind you I have a very limited imagination and I enjoy being practical, so what you read here might materialize sebijik-sebijik during the wedding. If it’ll ever take place lah. LOL.

1.How old are you?

2. Are you single?

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
Hmmh. I’d say around 28-30. Considering a woman’s short reproductive age and to avoid cancer risks, I don’t oppose the idea of tying the knot even earlier than that though. Nuha said and I quote – “The clock is ticking!

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
Not applicable.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Mister Right. The one I fall head over heels for. The one who make me go weak at the knees.

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
A garden wedding! I do want some traditional aspects incorporated because I’m just conventional like that. Beach wedding won’t work for me, nanti tudung kulop y’all. LOL.

7. Your ideal motif?
WHITE, with blue irises/orange lilies as deco. But if were to pick a colour, a light shade of orange would be nice. But it depends on the colour of the groom as well. Ehem.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
MONACO!! Basically anywhere nice with a kick ass hotel service because as newlyweds we would wanna spend more of our time indoors….right? Haha.

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
I have a BIG family, so a small intimate event won’t work for me. Probably a thousand guests.

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
A classy, sophisticated one.

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
I’ll totally make up something on my own, and it’ll be as corny as hell so you’ve been warned! And it’d be nice if he would somehow emulate Preston Burke’s vow and put a little twist to make it sound his own.

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
A sumptuous 2-tier red velvet cake, covered in white icing swirls and topped with sugar roses.

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
Hotel receptions would cost a bomb, plus it won’t accommodate a lot of guest. So at home it will be. A destination wedding would be nice, but it would be a hassle to plan for. Not practical.

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
Doesn’t matter, as long as it doesn’t interrupt waktu solat and tak panas. I don’t wanna mess my make-up!

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Outdoors, please.

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom/bride?

17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?
These 3 songs will be played on heavy rotation : Carpenter’s Close To You, Dewa 19’s Kasidah Cinta, and Edwin McCain’s I Couldn’t Ask For More.  And he has to sing me Angel by Jack Johnson to which I would reply with Love Is You by Chrisette Michele. Hoho.

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?
A night person. I am veryyyy cranky in the morning sans my coffee fix.

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
A light one.

20. What age do you want to get married?
Hmmmh. 28 ish? After internship, definitely.

21. Describe your ideal husband/wife.


Just someone who gets me. Someone who is funny, witty, intellectual, confident but self-deprecating, adventurous, and spiritual. Someone who respects me, my family, and my friends. Someone who will not stand in the way of my ambitions, and supports me throughout the way. Andddd kalau boleh someone who is not a doctor. Cukuplah aku sorang je geek.

I’d like to think that all the aforementioned qualities are actually achievable. Insha-Allah. 🙂 (Yes Dinie, I remain optimistic!)

22. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
Normal fork and spoon. Tangan pun ok.

23. Champagne or red wine?

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Right after! I doubt if that is possible though, because my mom had always said that “Lepas habis majlis, pengantin kena tolong sental periuk“. But we’re definitely getting a caterer so there’ll be no periuk to sental la kan?

25. Money or household item?
Tak kisah. Surprise me!

26. Who will pay for the bills?
Both of us will.

27. Are you ready for married life?
As for now, hell no.

28. Do you think you will still be a virgin until u get married?
Definitely. But quoting NK, “Unless John Legend/James Mc Avoy/Thierry Henry is all alone with me on a deserted island. Hahahaa.”

29. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
Always will. And hopefully it’ll go both ways too. I’ll beat the crap out of him if  he cheats haha.

30. How many kids do you like?
2-3. No twins please. Too much to handle at one time.

31. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
A new one. Probably a cosy apartment for two in the suburbs of KL. Kot-kot I marry a millionnaire, a place like The Troika is an option too. Ngee.

32. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
Doesn’t really matter. But I do want to have something like a vow-renewal ceremony when we get older, to reaffirm our love and whatnot. Sweeeet.

33. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
Fusion. East meets west. Will it be too much to ask for kambing golek? Oh and a dessert bar is a must!

34. Will you record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
Dvd. Cd mesti takkan muat.

I’m tagging my UPM mates: Farah, Munie, Anot, Lynn and Nana. De-stress people! Hahaa

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August 2008 was filled with multiple celebrations of love <3.

Starting off with…

my dear sister’s engagement!

I helped her plan the whole thing and Alhamdulillah, everything went well. The hantarans I (helped) made turned out awesome too, tee heee. Can’t wait for the BIG day next year! Although I secretly dread the day for it would be the day that I will lose my one and only sister. 😦

080808 saw our head girl, Hidayah Jaris, or affectionately known to STFians as Dayout getting married to Afiq, a KYS boy who is currently her classmate in Moscow. Yes, they’re still students! Medical students nonetheless. (Tabik spring lah korang, good luck in juggling things!) Dayout is the second of us 9903 girls to get married after J.E in 2006.

A bunch of us came all the way from KL, Kuantan and Perak to Simpang Renggam just to witness our head girl take the plunge. The turnout was bigger compared to J.E’s, probably due to the head girl factor hahaa. Dayout looked so different after being dolled up! It felt like only yesterday that me and Nuha planned a surprise birthday party for Dayout back in 2003, and now she’s already married! Geez.

NK and Dinie, you two were deeply missed!

Anyway I love batch weddings! We conquered nearly one canopy to ourselves, yakked and camwhored like nobody’s business. Had fun reminiscing the good ole days, and getting updates on everyone’s current whereabouts and new jobs. And of course, we gossiped the afternoon away! So much fun!! 🙂

The weekend after was another batchmate’s turn to get hitched. This time it’s in Meru for Sikin Ahmad’s big day! I only managed to attend the solemnization ceremony as I had another wedding to go to on the reception day. It was a simple event, but very sweet and syahdu y’all. Sobs.


Sikin and husband Rafeeq are also still studying in Russia. So we came to a conclusion that kalau nak kawin awal, belajar kat Russia. LOL.

Congratulations Dayout and Sikin! Selamat menjadi Puan-puan yang berjaya! May you guys always sail in the same direction, sharing aspirations, hopes, dreams and whatnot. Cheers.

So girls, who’s next? Jeng jeng jeng.

P/S : I’ve managed to attend ALL batch weddings so far. Heh heh heh. Jangan jealous yo.

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